I feel that, and hear the same thing. I initially went through this 2 years ago, but gave up on finding a psychiatrist pretty quickly. Thankfully my Uni's nurse practitioner was able to help, and hooked up a prescription. Since then, I've just been going to whatever clinics are nearby, and they mostly seem fine with renewing. My guess is that there was one, or more likely a series of events that have caused you to seriously consider wtf is going on, possibly life de-railing events, and I wish you the best of luck.