I think the “it feels like” or similar is telling me have expectations of how social interaction should behave, how it should be motivated, etc. have you considered if your expectations actually match with reality, or if it’s reasonable to hold these expectations? A therapist might be able to help you navigate this.
(If I were to be honest, my plain question is “what is wrong with enjoying human company just because human company is enjoyable?”. It’s like saying it’s manipulative to eat to resolve hunger to me, as if every meal should be some Michelin star experience or starvation.)
