It's just about personal aesthetics. You no longer like yourself, so you went and started to change yourself to better fit your new aesthetic sense.
Obviously the sense is informed by what you perceive.
You higher could be pretty low for someone else. Like yourself in a couple of years.
It's the biggest lie of them all that some behaviors are higher than other. That's how they sell you church, work week and other frogs.
Why? Because most of us converge on the same basic idea that with cooperation, we can have generally more fun. So we invent ways to get others involved in our shit. Some of it manipulative, because ends justify the means. Well, except when you like to play on hard and limit the set of your means, because it's more fun that way.