I don't think you should even been playing those mind games with yourself. Focus on what you can control which is leveraging the tools available to you and have some grounded perspective. There's a lot of noise. There's also a bunch of coincidental events happening simultaneously (economy, post-covid recovery, company right sizing, etc) that are obscuring things.
hmm, actually thank you man. perhaps, you're right. I didn't see them as playing mind games with myself. I always thought of it as planning for the worst. But it is certainly a debilitating habit.
