What keeps you going?

As this person describes, before this occurred, life had it's ups and downs. But even with the serious downs, it was typically about a three day cycle before they started to "bounce back". Even when the underlying issue was not resolved, the current day and current experiences started to once again predominate, and things started to come "into perspective".

Currently, they experience some level of discomfort almost constantly, and the infrequent "good periods" are quite unpredictable. The result is that they often simple can't concentrate on things in a sustained fashion, and so they also can't enter the state of "flow" that used to make them so productive.

My point: GUARD YOUR HEALTH. And pay attention to your health. If you are struggling, stop and ask yourself: How am I doing, physically?

I've become convinced that a significant portion of the U.S.'s "mental health" issues actually have their origin in physical health, or lack thereof.

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One of my issues with health care in the U.S. is that, when the doctor makes a mistake, you "pay twice" to -- hopefully -- have it fixed. If you don't want to do that, and/or they don't fix things, you face a very expensive and uncertain process. In this person's case, all they really wanted was to "feel better". One would think that addressing this, medically, would be the simplest solution, But... the U.S. health care system has a way of entirely reversing priorities.

Insurance helps ameliorate this somewhat (a cap on your own, immediate out-of-pocket expenses). If you don't have insurance (perhaps, ever more so these days, through no fault of your own), or they deny your claim, you're fully screwed.

Most of the time, simply taking a break helps a lot. I go to the movies, meet friends. Spend time with my family, although not as much as I should or want to.

Other than that, I also have other passions: I play guitar/keyboards, I read stuff (although not as much as I should or want to). I started a master in Philosophy, which is both challenging and exciting. I wish I'd become a film-maker someday, but the school is pretty expensive. Don't know about it.

However, I got tired of being on my own as it's hard work and energy consuming. I'm working on a new product now (http://bicodr.com), which excites me. And I also use the excitement back into the current product, which still brings a good income.

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I don't know if PG originated the phrase or not, but somewhere in his copious writing and speaking, he once said something along the lines of, "One of the toughest thing for YC is keeping up the spirits of a batch of founders going through the trough of sorrow." --Though I've quoted it, this is not a direct quote, and worse, off the top of my head I can't remember the exact reference I should cite. In other words, I may be misquoting him, and if so, hopefully he'll correct me.

As for me personally, the thing that keeps me going is remembering how lucky I am.

Today is a great and wonderful day, but in more precise terms, I feel good enough to be out in my little garage/office and I good enough to type out this comment. To put it bluntly, my health sucks, and as such, my usefulness is curtailed about half the time, sometimes more. Every day when I can read and learn something is a good day, even if I hurt too much to type out any notes, ideas or code.

I admire and even envy the people starting new companies. I may not be able to use or afford their services, but I still admire their efforts; they are doing something I am physically unable to do. Each of them is taking on the amazingly fun challenge of starting a business, and I may never again have the luxury, the drive, or the physical ability needed to once again enjoy the challenge of building a startup.

None the less, I count my blessings. I have a roof over my head, food on my table, and relative peace in my area of the world here in the silicon valley, so I have much to be thankful for in life, but more importantly, I KNOW I am very lucky. I appreciate the little things I can still do even if they seem pointlessly trivial by comparison.

If you've never been thankful for the ability to simply cut the food on your plate, let alone having food on your plate, then you are probably caught in the mental spiral of worrying about unimportant things.

Today was "Demo Day" for the Winter 2012 batch of YCcombinator startups, and you can be certain that every founder in the batch had many worries and concerns about presenting their companies to potential investors for the first time. The upcoming deadline for YC applications at the end of the month has all of the potential candidates of the next YC batch worried and concerned. If you are not involved in YC and have your own startup, you also have plenty of worries and concerns.

The thing to remember is, as a founder you are very lucky to have these problems to worry about. If you can learn to take a step back and remember how lucky you are, then you'll learn to enjoy and appreciate each and every little challenge you face.

I hope this helps.