I have affection for them. And some of it's my fault for agreeing to things that I hoped I could do, like co-habiting, instead of things that I knew I liked, like living separately.
The motivation is that I'm no longer yelled at by the person I love the most, who I'm supporting financially and emotionally. They were right about some things, my depression got to them, I probably should have left sooner, I probably should not have escalated as far as I did, and I am just kinda having a mid-life crisis and trying to make up for my 20s being boring.
Do you think I did it all for no reason? Do you think people regularly get married despite having no love at all, then divorce for no reason? Maybe it's fair to say I only had a crush, not real love. We should teach kids the difference. Nobody told me.
