This is something I've had to train myself to overcome. The first step for me was having a place where I clearly signaled that this wasn't my best work. Where the rules were allowed to be broken. That place is my junk drawer of code[1].

I have a zsh alias `alias changes='git add . && git commit -am "Changes" && git push'` that I use for my commits in the repo.

This all may feel silly, but it's what I needed to get back to that time of playing. Where I never worried about the code. But where I also didn't feel I was wasting my time working on code no one could see. I'd definitely recommend trying something like that if you are struggling with it.

[1]: https://github.com/jimmyhmiller/PlayGround