I don't want to say explicitly what I did because I think it's the wrong way to approach spirituality and I would not recommend it to anyone else. I barely survived and took a lot of time to reintegrate to daily life. I suffered and my parents suffered for some time because of it. I was depressed for months.

I was naive to do something like that without enough research.

Also as Jung said unearned wisdom can be dangerous.

The comment above yours got it pretty close though.

Also I think if I disclose more I think it's possible someone else who knew me can associate this account with me.