m3tr0s

I got my degree in computer science about 1.5 years ago. I had and have problems finding and maintaining a job since then. I'm a frontend developer, and I think I have the necessary knowledge about web in general and practice in JS to be a junior developer at least. However it seems like I have two problems:

- I'm not good at understanding existing codebases. It is not that I can't fix a single bug or implement a new feature, it is just I'm slow. How can I improve this? I'm looking for something like a job simulation at home, like list of tasks to do in an existing codebase, with explanation or even guidance. I don't want to start another stupid practice project at home while I stress myself out about when will I find a job again.

- I have problems at paying attention in meetings. I struggled through the whole university too. I understood and learned almost everything at home for 5 years. Sometimes I even got asleep during important classes. I'm not talking about 1.5 hour long scrum groomings or reviews, sometimes I can't even pay attention during a 15 minute long standup in the morning. At my lost job they found it as a serious problem. Where to start?

Thank you!