I have every reason to believe I am being pushed out of my salary role (USA). The writing is on the wall, management is putting together a case and starting to use "HR Speak" in Slack and Email. They point to performance but I've been in the industry for a long time and believe this is personal or there are other reasons at play.
I have never been fired before. I've gone through some coping stages already -- anxiety, depression and fear. Now, I believe I am starting to embrace it as I cannot control it and am obviously unwanted on this team. Sometimes I wish they would just fire me and get it over with.
I could move into another full-time role at a different company but hope to work for myself one day. I don't want to join a new company and leave soon after -- they don't deserve that treatment.
I do not have a lot of money saved (not good!). In fact, I will probably owe them a big chunk of the sign-on bonus (dumb mistake on my end). I have no idea about unemployment or under what circumstances one can collect.
If you've been fired, or saw it coming:
- What was your experience?
- Is there anything you wish you would have done differently?
- Any suggestions?
- Is there any remedy for the dread that keeps you up at night?
- Did you have family to support and come out the other end okay?
- How do you not laugh (in agony, of course) at the sudden change when management starts talking like they work Customer Service and have to pretend to be nice?
- Do I keep this role (less than 1 year) on my resume for future applications?
I'm trying to stay positive but this is actually very stressful to experience and has been boiling much longer than I should have let it.
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